Every May, there is a plein air competition called
Paint Webster in Webster Groves. I participated in it the first year I moved here and had a
good experience and even sold the piece I worked on all afternoon. The following year in 2009 I excitedly jumped in again. It was a perfect day for painting out doors and I had a location all lined up. I set up my little outdoor studio and dug in. An hour later I was so frustrated with my painting, I abandoned it and decided to try another one at a different spot. This time I chose the quad area of town and sat in a place where I wouldn't get so pulled in by the details. I worked for an hour or so - still frustrated but pressing on. Then the dentist whose house/practice I was painting came over and said a kind word to me. I would have happily abandoned my work for conversation, but felt I should finish. Then not long after the lawn mowers started and I was in the way of the weekly quad mow. Talk about distraction! I had to pick up my portable studio to avoid the path of the tractor. At this point I was 4 hours into it - cold, tired and just about ready to throw my painting under the wheels of the lawn mower, I decided to call it a day and chalk it up to a bad temper and grass.
That was over a year ago.
I found the painting recently pressed between watercolor paper and mat board. I set it out and just looked at it for a couple of days and I came to the conclusion...
"It wasn't bad! So why did I give up?"
First of all let me point out the most important thing. Never throw away a painting no matter how you "feel" about it.
NEVER. Your feelings change, the painting doesn't. And I have to say I learned some very important lessons in this process.
1. I'm a horrible judge of my own work WHILE I'm working.
2. My feelings taint my judgment.
3. Feelings get in the way of painting... sometimes.
4. Stepping away is important.
I put a few, yes just a few, finishing touches on this painting and am actually proud to post it. May you take these art lessons and apply them to non-art things too people!!!!
2 comments:
Oh, it's a BEAUTIFUL painting! Honestly, thank God you kept it! It's wonderful. So glad to hear you're going to do the Sketchbook Project, Amy. You'll do gorgeous things, I just know it. You're so creative. I hope you post things! I agree with everything you say here. Very true.
Amy, you paint beautifully! I would be thrilled with that painting! I join a plein air class every September in Cape May. The first year I froze. I was frustrated, angry at myself, intimidated, etc, etc. I was embarrassed to show my meager efforts at the daily critique. The second year was almost the same & I realized my comfort zone was inside my studio. I was so distracted by everything going on around me and felt so insecure. Last year was much better but my painting was tight. I'm going back again this year & I'll keep trying!
I totally agree with you...I save every painting. You need to look with fresh eyes a month or so later to see the painting honestly...
and I am my own worst critic while I work, as well!
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